today, like every day I think that I’m so happy to have peace and health in my life. Yesterday Christine told me that Lola had some water in her longs….a bad “souvenir” for me to hear something like that. Quentin leaved to early to this wonderful world due to “water in the longs”. It’s sure that for Lola, hopefully it’s “only” a pneumonia for her and in few days she will be again the beautiful happy girl that she is everyday.
The only good thing in the life is to life it more than all and to be honest with the other and you self. I’m very sad of the departure of Quentin and everyday I miss him, but I know that I went honest with him. I could told him that he was so important for me and he could say me his feelings for me. He leaved in peace and I feel the same peace when I see the sky thinking to him.
Now I don’t understand why everybody is not like that? Why it is so complicate sometimes to have contact with old friends without getting bad interpretations of the feeling, just when you said that you still have respect and feelings for this people who was so important in one moment of you life? why is so complicate to be a “responsible” sometimes and has to give some orders when you want to be the most cool possible? why people has to compare them life with yours and juge yours acts?
I try to be happy with what I have and sometimes I understand that I can not be so honest with everybody. Not every body understand it! and I feel sad about that. But telling my feelings is my way to be now. Why? Because I found the Love one day of April 1991, I feeled the most powerfull feelings on the 27th of December 2000 and on the 3th of march 2006…so I don’t search nothing more. Just enjoying each second of my life because I understood on day of July 2006 that we leave this life always to early.
so I will follow searching……..and looking for more second to share with people I love.